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i feel happy this week.. 1st was to know that at least im among the 27 players.. i wanted to play in this tournament so badly though i know i might not have the chance.. there's more experience players out there who are going too.. so, all that matters now is to continue working hard..
2ndly, im happy that i improved a little on my fitness.. my timing on monday was better than usual though it didn't reach my target.. i survived during the shutter sprint.. but i was 40m behind the beat for the 2nd set..
however, not all seems right.. im having lesser and lesser leisure time.. i goes to school every morning with no energy and hope to get some sleep during any lectures.. haiz..
most of my energy are used up by hockey.. my brain is used up by tests.. i ended up having the same habit like how i used to have back in oct.. study too much that every sentence i said will sure to relate to any of the subjects.. so sian..
i really need a break.. hope this public holiday together with friday and weekends will help to regain my energy.. how i wish i could have someone to sleep, shop and do things for me.. haiz..
whatever it is, im happy with how things are going on nowadays.. haha.. though i kind of find it troublesome to use VCM for tut, i have happy moments too! (:
she wrote on Thursday, May 31, 2007 @ 3:09 AM
weird..
school has been fine so far.. but currently fighting for revision time.. so many test to concentrate on.. i guess im to be blame for being so stubborn! i should have listened to xinni's and wanting's advice to start studying from the 1st week.. now im in a difficult situation.. haiz.. afterall, the tests here are not the same compared to the ones in sec sch; though the tests in sec sch covers more topics and are more often than now..
for that, my new resolution in poly would be to stay hardworking and do my best for tests/quizes/exams..
something happened over the weekend.. something that made me think over and over again.. i've choosen to watch my diet and to really follow as far as possible with the nutrition list.. but soehow i feel weird.. it's like as if im on the road to having anorexia.. maybe it's the start.. but i'll make sure this is not something i do only for a short period of time..
and yeah.. i think i shall go for fb trg on saturday.. it has been a long time since i train and see all of them.. miss the jokes and laughter with them.. mai, enrico, afiqo, sha and many more..
she wrote on Tuesday, May 22, 2007 @ 9:15 PM
bleeding
ps: the folowing entry might be TOO emo and contain things that some would dislike to hear.. so, either stay or leave.. you decide..
i don't know how should i describe my feelings now.. but one thing for sure is that my heart is BLEEDING!
it's a heart breaking to see something you really never want to see with your OWN EYES.. it's enough to tear your heart in pieces.. what's more to have someone you're close to, telling you another news that worsen the scenario.. it just makes my heart BLEEDS CONTINUOUSLY!
i tried to keep it to myself.. i tried to control my feelings.. but it was TOO hard for me to control.. those blood rolling down finally made me shed into tears.. i hide myself..
i was hoping for it to stop bleeding but it just CAN'T STOP.. for 3 hours, i SUFFERED! the feeling was worse than to see your love ones leaving you..
i dont know why.. ppl might think im being very naive to think in such a way when it's just a minor problem.. well, maybe it is to them.. BUT not for me.. when im in love with it, i give my heart and soul to it.. im faithful to them.. i wouldn't betray them unlike some ppl out there.. when something bad happens to someone close to me, it affect me very badly.. but when something bad happens to someone im not really close or might not even be related to me, it affect me TREMENDOUSLY! well, maybe this is just me.. i tend to think too much over the slightest thing..
but till now, im losing more blood.. blood that is from my heart.. how i wish you know how much heart and soul i am into this..
she wrote on Sunday, May 20, 2007 @ 1:33 AM
time flies..
time flies so fast.. without me realising, it's alr ending of week 5 of school.. week 6 i starting.. EWS 1st ICA is alr over.. ICA 2 is coming soon.. this coming week will be stats and marketing ICA.. the following will be biz software, poa and macro ICA.. im so dead.. im not prepared for it yet.. got to start studying by the end of this week..
im alr training with the nats ladies.. trg have ben tough.. trg very hard for upcoming tournaments.. next thurs itself will be the selection for the junior asia cup.. im not sure if i can make it through.. but i really hope i get it into the team..
i'm sick and tired of this template.. plan to change it soon with someone's help.. will get it done by end of next month.. hahaha..
she wrote on Friday, May 18, 2007 @ 6:11 PM
wfc website
i was excited to watch the wfc game on the website when everything turned BAD.. I got so frustrated.. I started refreshing the page from the time the game started til the end of the game.. Very irritating.. Feel like punching this damn laptop.. They didn't show the 1st and 3rd period of the game.. Even the 2nd period game was not shown fully.. The online update was also EXTREMELY SLOW.. During the 2nd period, the score was alr 8-3 but the online update was still at the 1st goal.. So FRUSTRATING! just hope the arafura games website wont disappoint me..
tmr will be my 1st ICA.. the best thing of all, it's ENGLISH! my most dislike subject.. ut at least it's not as BORING as those learned in sec sch.. it is much more interesting now.. plus my classmaes who always make fun of the topic.. i dont mind studying English Language so hard to get a good results in my course.. afterall, i cant run away with it.. i have to be good in English Language to do well in business.. Haha..
As for my test tmr, i'll just try my best.. will try to score as much in section A to help cover up my section B.. i won be surpris if i don't do well for my test tmr since it's my 1st time.. anyway, im still in the process to improve on it.. like how they always say, it's not about the OUTCOME but it's the EFFORT that counts..
she wrote on Monday, May 14, 2007 @ 7:36 PM
movie
i guess friday is the only day for me to rest officially.. haha.. after so long not hanging out with the northland ppl, i finally manage to find the time to go out together.. Raj, Suzannah, Fazilla and i went out together in the afternoon just now for an early dinner at ljs.. we then went to watch the malay horror movie (Jangan Pandang Belakang).. though nana watched it before, she insisted on watching against since the other day it wasn't so clear.. though raj dont take up malay as the 2nd lang, he still watched with us since there was english subtitle and he understands malay language..
was it a horror movie? 80%.. was it funny? 20%.. but i think the 4 of us turned it the other way round.. we watched it as if it was a comedian movie.. we couldn't stop laughing.. haha.. even after we've reached np, we still laugh like no one's business.. haha.. but i seriously recommend oters to watch.. it might not be based on true story but it's based on the imagination the script writer and some of the crew members experience.. but sad to know one of the crew member passed away during the shooting period.. afterall, it is REALLY nice movie to watch.. GO and CATCH it while you can!
Quote to share with the others:
Success is about the EFFORT, not the OUTCOME
(hope this can be my strength to last longer in nats)
she wrote on Friday, May 11, 2007 @ 10:10 PM
dilemma..
should i or should i not?
can anyone help me in this?
im seriously confused..
who can i really talk about this?
im CONFUSED!
she wrote on Wednesday, May 02, 2007 @ 11:17 PM
jansenites dinner
had jansenites diner last night at 7.. went there early with syaz and jannah for some reasons.. help with some of the preparation.. before 7, all the girls were busy in the washroom.. very funny.. the washroom was nice enough to provide big tale and chair with power supply.. so, all of the ladies went in to do some make-up.. hazlin and limin look extremely gorgeous with their dress and make-up on.. we even did our lass rehearse for our dance in the washroom.. haha.. but seriously.. the space we had to for our make-up doesn't seem to be in a washroom.. it seems like a dressing room.. haha..
the guys came in later.. they look good though some of them just dress in T-shirts and jeans.. the dinner part was fun.. sitting with those jokers like enrico, alfian and all.. they can't stop giving comment about the pictures that were on the slides..
the dance was funny.. funny enough to sit at one corner and watch the guys dance.. i didnt dance actually.. the songs seems very boring to dance.. haha.. the guys were trying so many ways to have johnson on the dance floor but were to no avail.. that goes to limin too.. haha.. sabri and iman were jokers.. they dont care what the others think about them when they were dancing infront of everyone else.. it was damn hilarious.. haha.. the best part was the time when enrico fell while dancing.. he was following sabri who jump on the air.. but have no idea what happened that enrico fell after jumping.. haha.. he still continue dancing after that.. haha.. damn funny.. we could hear the sound.. haha.. not only that.. we could see uncle richard, mr gomez, uncle chandran all dancing.. haha..
the girls gave out some ifts to erni who have been with us for so long and have always been there for us.. but it was sad that mr gay couldn't make it for the dinner.. xinni didn't turn up too.. so each time their name was mentioned, we had to say "not here".. haha..
limin, herman, shaiful and sabri won some award for some jansenites things.. CONGRATS to all of you..
overall, i had fun with them after so long not having dinner/party.. dinner that ended in the morning is cool arh.. haha.. though last night i ended up going to the washroom so many times to empty my bladder for drinking so much.. haha..
im looking forward for more dinners/parties.. (:
she wrote on Tuesday, May 01, 2007 @ 4:55 PM