so yesterday afternoon was spent at ssc.
think it would be my regular place for the next 2 weeks?
haha!

so, rushed down to wlands after that for friendly
i have ntg more to say about the game.
all i want to say have alr been noted down in the email.
back home after dinner followed by DIY stuff.
and it's guarantee that adroits are strong ppl.
cause after got elbow on my head and nose last night,
it still hurts. haha!

after eating 2 fastfood meals yest,
i'll have to face level 10 beep test today.
hope everything goes well ;)

junaby, dont worry too much about the game aite. you did pretty well and i know you gave your best. and after months, im still chasing the ball from you. how stupid can i look right? haha! be positive and you'll always be my #1 superstar! ;) *hugs*




okay, at this very moment
i think im going nuts!
so many things going through my mind.

1st: phone is giving problems from A-Z.
2nd: 'friendly' ankle is giving me pain whenever i run.
3rd: can i last for friendly tmr? ankle is retricting myself.
4th: can i meet the passing mark for thurs beep test?
5th: how unlucky can i get for the whole of today?
6th: how to pass shuxin the fb sticks before going ssc tmr?
7th: team is so unorganize for tmr.
8th: savings in the bank that keep decreasing.
9th: going ssc tmr and i need $$ to travel for bus journey!
10th: i hate the smell of my house! thanks to the whole basket of durians!
11th: my face hurts! all thanks to the super hot sun just now.
12th: my wardrobe is still undone! omg!

see that long list above?
there's more than that
but i just cant seem to jot them down.
okay, maybe im being naive to worry over little things.
guess i should get going.
giving me headache thinking about all those.




didn't do much today.
was just ssc and queensway.
but felt like i had a super long day.

past 1am.
and im super dead tired and sleepy!
another long day tmr.
so, off i go now.




okay, look at the bottom of this entry.
checked out the time i actually wrote this.
i wonder why im not sleeping yet.
tired? sleepy? actually kind of.
but not sure why im still here.
sitting and staring at the screen.
dumb right? lols!

so what's on monday?
ssc at 2pm.
perhaps going earlier.
shall meet pretty lynn
(she claim it herself!)
and forever-missed leng.
tcss and kill time?
heading for polite games?
maybe, maybe not?
hmmm.

i miss the old times ):




i love today ;)
went valhall to meet the 3,
then ssc for massage and the 2 doctors.
45 mins of massage on my back and calves.
i swear my back still hurts out of it.
and according to the lady,
this is what happens when i dont attend massage regularly?
idk. so i shall go down often for free massage? lols!

off to nyp to watch the hockey games.
thanks to robin for sending us there.
if not, guess im sure to be late.
late lunch while watching the 1st game.
girls game was cool. seeing those dribbles and all.
guys game was exciting except those arguments of course.

back home with joanne.
chat with atiqah otw to the station.
and not forgetting,
the arguments over the phone with mahes.
guess alot of ppl in the train were looking at us.
cause we were laughing our lungs out throughout the 2 stops journey.
but i totally love it. was a really good catch up with joanne.
so joanne, i still love you k? haha!
11 years knowing you. actually more.
cause we were neighbours together with hafizah.
lols!



suddenly, im missing you again.




trg was good.
did a lil more drills.
sadly when i can run,
did so little drills.
but when my whole leg is aching,
so many interesting drills to do.
i still enjoy trg under the rain though.
haha!

i seriously wonder what has come into me.
i kept yawning on the way home.
but now im home, i cant seem to fall asleep.
neither do i feel tired. weird.
so much of going home later after dinner.
i end up shifting my lappy to the living room.
browsing through mio to look for movies to watch.

shall see how long will i take to fall asleep ;)




game was pretty alright.
besides the fact my butt is like aching to the max.
was since the moment i woke up today. rahh!

anw, saw someone coming in during 1st half.
coming slowly with her crutches.
none other than our dearest TAN LEE LENG!!
i swear i was damn shocked!
i know i dont have a perfect eyesight.
but for that moment, i knew it was her.
was very confident that i shouted her name.
so damn happy to see her coming down.
then joan, xinni, lynn started seeing her.
all started shouting her name along.
and all of a sudden, we all got energetic on the pitch.
no kidding. you can see xinni dribbling for 50 yards on the left.
you can see lynn trying so hard to score.
you can see joan taking the 16 yards really hard.
(cause leng was walking pass at the back. lols!)

so leng, see how much you mean to all of us.
you bring inspiration to all of us to play better.
every goal chua scored is for you.
cannot be mine nor lynn yeo.
cause chua scored the most.
so you can take hers. lols!




i stared at the screen,
not knowing what to do.
then it started all over again.

my fingers clicked on them,
and my eyes started to read.
thats where my mind was brought back to history.

my heart was brought back to the time,
when you left me hanging and speechless.
i just cant erase those time off my mind.

i wonder if im really over it.
it may seem i have,
but deep down, i asked myself.

i wish you know whats on my mind,
but i believe its all about time.
i've said it before and im saying it again,
that no matter what, you'll always be in my heart.




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HPFTF made up of students from nearby poly.
and they totally have my support.
cause i know one of them
whom is connected to my very good friend! ;)
lame excuse. but thats not the only reason.
i think the song is not bad.
i kind of like it. seriously.
talented youths/singers.




okay, my nose hasn't been cooperative for today.
it blocked me from breathing normally when i woke up.
then blocked again when i reached home.
now, it's running like a tap water.
so once again i turned into a tissue girl.
dotzzzzz.

yesterday was cleaning up my room
then dinner with limin, xinni, ivy & meixian.
i still got my wardrobe to settle.
but least my study table looks much neater.
all this while my dad stuff is taking up half the space.

so today was school trg.
drills were good. most of them are getting much better.
of course if you turn up for trg, you'll improve right.
if not, too bad. (not pointing to anyone in particular)
though some have yet to use it confidently during game time,
i believe they will get better with more practise.




im seriously damn bored at home now.
when im busy, im super busy.
till not having enough time for family & friends.
but when im free, im super free like FOC. *lame*

so, all i did yesterday was attended sch trg.
shall not elaborate much about the attendance.
super poor turn up. *disappointment*
nonetheless, i still enjoyed myself ;)
to have ugly, hairy and joan around is good enough.
of course having gorg and useless will be better.
gosh, i really miss having gorg with us :(

anw, did lots of new drills and playups.
first time feeling so tired during sch trg.
alr tuesday tiredness not gone yet,
now having so little ppl to do drills.
but trg with this coach is damn cool.
not only you get to enjoy yourself playing,
but you seriously learn alot too! ;)
now i cant wait for saturday trg.
gonna do more drills and playups ;) *yessa*




presentations and roleplay all done.
so, my school break has OFFICIALLY STARTED! ;)

good news is, it would be for 3 1/2 weeks. shiok!
i can replenish all my sleep for all i want.
meaning shopping!! but money from??
maybe from the sky. haha!

bad news is, no one is having holiday as me.
except those who just graduated, working ppl and private students.
and when my holiday ends,
thats where ppl will be having their exams
and soon after, their holiday!

another thing is, my work will start on 11 aug.
all the way till 2nd week of oct.
i seriously need to score during my 2nd round. (dream on)
but how? i have to try and keep my attentance as high as possible.
cause i'll be taking lots of excuse for polite fb!!!
say goodbye to good grades syafizah!









weekend gone just like that?
half of my saturday was spent at SP.
friendly at 10 and stayed on till 4pm?
game was ______.
the only nice thing was lunch.
happily talking till we forgot about the time.
evening was project till dinner time.
midnight was spent at punggol.
still love it though i was super sleepy.

another half day gone on sunday.
as a result for reaching home late morning,
i slept in till 12 noon.
still feel like cont sleeping actually. haha!
off with family minus elder sis.
spent close to 300+ on 1 item? gosh!
food fare at expo then home.
project again till dont know what time.
yet again, im not fully done.
but guess im giving up.
cause i want to sleep!

BED CALLING!




trg was great today.
despite being pangsei about trg starting at 6pm.
but coming early is always nice.
chit-chat session and all.
this time round, was singing session.
plus it was alr starting to rain.
thanks to lynn yeo, lampy, mardhiah and i. lols!

had a surprise running before stickwork too.
5 x 300m. 20 secs for every 100m.
been so long since we did that lah!
actually it should be fine.
but failed to meet during the last one.
cause i swear my arms was still as heavy as last night.
and so is my hamstring.
felt like the muscles were tied in a knot.
i couldn't run for nuts.
always end up walking back after each time i go during drills.
and that's very sad for me. hmmm.
but i felt it was a good trg for me though.









seriously, training was superly bad for me.
like to the max!
i couldnt concentrate for nuts.
give me a simple pass/sweep/hit.
i swear i wont be able stop it properly.
just a disgrace on myself.
i really need to put my mind back in action.
or i'll be dead.
hmmm.




my body is seriously drained out.
whole day i was carrying a heavy bag,
thanks to my lappy and my used trg attire.
lucky im not having sch tmr. haha!

anw, day was still fine.
though started off slow.
lunch with mate in sch,
followed by discussion.
then off to np to meet my dearest president.
seriously, that 1 hr of talking & desserting was worth it.
so, train again to delta for trg.
was a good trg though.
and i seriously think i wasn't focusing enough during trg.
too much talking and my mind was somehow elsewhere.
hmmm.

to ms. president:
thanks alot for your time. it was really great seeing you though it was kind of last minute. so i guess, your way of trying to start of msges was right? lols! anw, i seriously have to thank you for listening. you may not be good in giving advices, but listening is good enough for me. i'm glad you're always there for me despite the fact that we seldom meet up. we didn't start off well 2 years back (from what we brought back in our convo just now). but i certainly know you're someone whom i can trust. im glad you gave me the support and courage to speak up. talking to you makes me feel way much better. you'll still be my best president! ;)