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i'm wondering what is on your mind.
don't come to me if your intention is just to play me out.
cause i hate such people!
please don't force me to turn love into hatred.
she wrote on Friday, October 31, 2008 @ 12:02 PM
idk what have gotten over me. thought after last week, things will be fine. i started to move on slowly. but things are still hard; esp over the weekend. long journeys can seriously be negative at times. i had to keep my mind away from it and hide things for the others. it's so hard when you see yourself crying each time you wake up from sleep. not the first time though.
i was clicking and reading when i saw something i nvr thought i would see. crack! exactly the same feeling i had 6 months ago. and it's over the same thing and person again. my heart started to break apart again. it's crying out loud yet no one could see it. i couldn't take it any longer. the eyes started to tear again after a long drought. it hurts badly!
why am i so badly affected?
someone pls tell me i'm over all this.
someone pls tell me i'm not falling for it.
kayeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she wrote on @ 2:07 AM
suddenly miss being here. haha!
monday came home 1030pm & slept at 2am.
tuesday lesson 10am-9pm & slept at 2am.
wed lesson started at 8am!
i'm dead tired, i swear!
so much of wanting to skip sch on tues,
i just can't cause i know i'll miss alot!
i'm glad i survived till now.
just unlucky yest during cost accounting lect.
was really damn shag.
went into 'screen saver' mode for 5 mins.
next moment, i was as blurr as a sotong!
i don't understand a single thing that's printed in the notes!
got stressed and kan-chiong!
just see how much a short trip has brought me.
caused me to be SO TIRED!
caused me missed friday lessons,
end up not being able to do tutorials this week,
end up staying up late to do read-ups on what i've missed,
(i still got fined during the trip for studying? lols!)
end-up taking forever to complete a single tutorial,
end-up burning up my sleep,
end-up struggling through lessons and lects in sch!
i seriously hate it when these happens.
of course i benefit from the trip too;
those exposure and all.
i can't afford to slack this sem,
i can't afford to miss lesson unneccessarily,
i can't afford to doze off in school.
so what will happen during JAC?
i'll be dead!
i'll have to do work in advance.
meaning working 100000x more!
rahh!
i'm seriously stress out looking at my academic now.
it's getting more competitive now though mates stays.
i got to work hard and go through all this!
i need more encouragement!
she wrote on Thursday, October 30, 2008 @ 12:11 AM
let's end it with sweet memories :D
beloved family ;)
wonderful friends ;)
and forever me ;)
she wrote on Tuesday, October 21, 2008 @ 12:51 AM
just a matter of time ...
she wrote on Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 2:06 PM
chiong-ing of report period ;)"syafizah falls in love with studying again"
i wrote that on my facebook. haha!
somehow, i think sch timetable is fine.
tuesday will probably a super long day.
11hrs in sch! but i somehow love it.
simply cause there's biz law! 3hrs!
many say law is boring and dull.
they are all words and blah blah blah.
but i find them interesting.
esp knowing the cases happening around now.
biz law is something AF students look forward to every tues ;)
no doubt biz law is hard to score,
cause its base on impressive marking.
but knowing it actually makes me more motivated ;)
when you love a module,
you understand what's being taught better,
you enjoy studying that module,
and you'll put evenmore effort into it.
hence, you'll eventually score well ;)
obviously everyone in AF wants to score.
gpa is like everything to me in sch.
for every module i take, i aim high.
of course, it's not as easy as it says.
IT modules are probably to aim for B.
and this sem, im aiming for 4 As and 4Bs.
hopefully DIST somewhere.
i know this sem is not going to be easy.
but im giving my very best.
im hoping after sometime;
depending on the tournament calendar,
i can just pause hockey and fb
to focus on my studies.
i wanna score!
i wrote that on my facebook. haha!
somehow, i think sch timetable is fine.
tuesday will probably a super long day.
11hrs in sch! but i somehow love it.
simply cause there's biz law! 3hrs!
many say law is boring and dull.
they are all words and blah blah blah.
but i find them interesting.
esp knowing the cases happening around now.
biz law is something AF students look forward to every tues ;)
no doubt biz law is hard to score,
cause its base on impressive marking.
but knowing it actually makes me more motivated ;)
when you love a module,
you understand what's being taught better,
you enjoy studying that module,
and you'll put evenmore effort into it.
hence, you'll eventually score well ;)
obviously everyone in AF wants to score.
gpa is like everything to me in sch.
for every module i take, i aim high.
of course, it's not as easy as it says.
IT modules are probably to aim for B.
and this sem, im aiming for 4 As and 4Bs.
hopefully DIST somewhere.
i know this sem is not going to be easy.
but im giving my very best.
im hoping after sometime;
depending on the tournament calendar,
i can just pause hockey and fb
to focus on my studies.
i wanna score!
she wrote on Friday, October 17, 2008 @ 1:35 AM
sch starts tmr,
and im not yet done downloading those tuts & lect notes.
i've wasted my sat just like that.
now i got to find 1 free day
to download those tutorials,
and print them. hmph!
meaning getting ink catridge on standby.
photocopy shop better have those lecture notes.
if not my pocket will get burned!
for spending money on catridges for printing.
i don't like studying using the lappy!
i study better using the old school method.
i still prefer paper, pen and pencil
though it's using lots of paper.
so lects & tuts better not be laptop base!
she wrote on Sunday, October 12, 2008 @ 11:14 PM
TEP officially ended yesterday,
with EMRS Sports Day along.
while most of them at work,
cherishing the last moment at work,
i was at home replenishing my energy.
was really tired that i needed the 1 day leave.
with EMRS Sports Day along.
while most of them at work,
cherishing the last moment at work,
i was at home replenishing my energy.
was really tired that i needed the 1 day leave.
wanted to join in the sports day badly.
but was really damn tired.
missed sports day,
missed after-event party and pizza session,
missed the debrief in the lecture room.
so, had this conversation with terence.
telling me how emo emrs actualy turned yesterday.
im fine with the room being quiet esp during lunch time.
but to have all the teams in but emoing,
i cant imagine that.
during the debrief,
lecture room turned SILENCE.
so quiet that a drop of needle could be heard.
mr-ahlai-whatsoever super did a wonderful video for us.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDPjgkDANU0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aDPjgkDANU0
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9 weeks = 45 days of work.
gone just like that.
so much of hardwork done,
so much of challenges faced,
so much of rejection that we got,
we still managed to pull it through.
i faced lots of problems with my team,
i complaint every now and every minute.
yet, they are the ones who tolerate my nonsense and jokes.
super are nice and friendly.
but some are just to demanding.
it feels like a trash when your work are being flushed down.
yet, i learned alot from them.
work can be troublesome at times,
but fair enough, we have our low periods too.
work so hard in the start,
and online movies season at the end.
cardboards, paint, sprays,
paper, pens and brushes.
soccer, badminton and table tennis,
all of them in 1 project room.
too many memories in there,
but they are all kept in the heart.
teaching enterprise project
marketing service centres
event management & roadshow team
they will be missed ;)
she wrote on Saturday, October 11, 2008 @ 4:00 PM
was chatting happily with ms. crmc
when we got to know timetable is out.
i seriously find my timetable kind of weird.
should i be happy? or what?
look at it.
monday: 10am-12noon (sounds nice)
tues: 10am-12noon, 2pm-5pm, 6pm-9pm!! (NIGHT CLASS!)
wed: 10am-11am, 12noon-6pm (6hrs with no break?!?!?)
thurs: 3pm-6pm (hmmm)
fri: 1pm-4pm (okay, still acceptable)
tuesday is damn bad!
now i got to think how to attend tues trg.
6 CE, 1 PE and 1 SE.
im gonna missed out lots if i happened to go for trips.
heck! i shall work my ass off!
start downloading those notes, and
score some dist this round syafizah!
she wrote on Tuesday, October 07, 2008 @ 12:58 AM
I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three
The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality
When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three
As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands
Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed
she wrote on Friday, October 03, 2008 @ 3:44 PM
2 days of hari raya.
so far okay.
okay but not good enough.
received some unpleasant news.
but yeah.
happy enough to go for visiting,
seeking for apologies and stuff ;)
so far okay.
okay but not good enough.
received some unpleasant news.
but yeah.
happy enough to go for visiting,
seeking for apologies and stuff ;)
best 5 pics taken on day #1
(not in any order)
(not in any order)
1st pic before stepping out of the house
(i look fugly cause the ladies were rushing me out)
sri syafiqah & sri syafizah ;)
the 3 angels in the house <3
the ladies
safii & family (1st Oct 2008)
she wrote on Thursday, October 02, 2008 @ 10:35 PM